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[oceantheorem]

I bought a sweater.

And then I came home and sat on the floor and cried and I don't know why.

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[bsdstud.livejournal.com]

I think that it's strange that we can do so many social things, and spend so much time with friends, but at the same time feel so lonely. You're definitely not alone on that front. It's a very odd thing

I think that part of it is that we spend so little time in comfortable, casual social interraction. It's like the systems in place to assure that we have a social life keep us moving at full speed when combined with the classes and research and uncertainty of it all. Its' very hard to feel at home when home is such a stressful place.

Anyway. We'll hang out soon and drink at the halloween party and so forth, and barely notice the stress once midterms are up and fellowships are in. You're just catching your pace is all.

Make time to grab lunch of something soon, and just chill. We should get some folks down at my place to just watch movies or television sometime, rather than spending the evening running around.

[oceantheorem.livejournal.com]

There definitely hasn't been enough comfortable casual time. I actually hung out with Jeff a little bit yesterday before and after the sushi thing, and found that I don't even remember how to interact with people one-on-one. I'm so used to the big group socializing act of repeating my major and year over and over again, I can't remember what was cool about me or why I'm an interesting person, and I can't remember how to carry on normal conversations. I miss having friends. I know a ton of people here, but I feel that if I had a nervous breakdown at 3 in the morning, there's no one here I could call to wake up. I just don't know anyone that well yet. That sort of thing takes time to build up.

Anyway, a quiet evening of movies would be nice. Popcorn and a small group and a lack of conversation sounds, actually, fantastic.

Thank you again for checking on me. That means a lot.

[bsdstud.livejournal.com]

No problem. You're a very cool person and I'm always glad to have you around.

You're going to be fine. You just need to adjust a little to moderate the stress. Everyone gets a little screwy under the pressure.

That's also probably why people get a little awkward socially. Lots of people can relate to that too.

The key is to realize that this all isn't going to mess you up in the long-term, and just kind of embrace it. So, you work in the office day and night for a week or two... when you come out, you'll have a bunch of people who just did the same thing to get a beer with.