Passion

IT'S SNOWING! Sort of. I think it's actually snowing and melting at the same time. If it's not melting, then it's doing some weird sort of snow condensing magic and disappearing. Somehow I doubt it's sublimating.

Earlier, I went to Walgreen's to buy more hair dye, and inside it was jam-packed with red hearthings and candythings and cardthings, and people were EVERYwhere like it was just before a hurricane and they wanted duct tape, except it was singing balloons and giant stuffed animals with words on their stomachs, and I picked up a romance novel and some chocolate-covered coffee ball things--what could be better than coffee covered in chocolate??--along with my hair dye and two packs of hangers (because you can never have enough hangers), and as I checked out I felt a little sad that no one was buying large boxes of sugar for me, but as I walked out into the night, my feet clad in slippers because my toe doesn't like being in shoes, and my body wrapped up in the giant warm furry coat my dad bought for me, a few snowflakes floated down and landed on my arms, and I felt like perhaps the universe was saying that I just needed to take a moment to be happy with what I have. So I did.

I drove home and it wasn't snowing anymore, but ten minutes after I got into the house I went to close the window I'd left open this morning so the apartment could air out, and I could HEAR the snow beginning to fall. It was a very dry snow, coming down very quickly, and at first I thought it was very small hail. I stuck my head and shoulders out the window and found that it was in fact snow, and marveled at the fact that snow can make a noise. I didn't know snow could make a noise.

I covered up the blue spots in my hair. Hopefully the brown spots I got on my face will come off the rest of the way tomorrow morning.

Also, the lj update screen is pink with hearts. I'm not sure how I feel about that. First they take away my option to customize my update screen, and now they force pink hearts on me? I mean, I'm all about pink and hearts, sure. Sometimes even around Valentine's Day. But pink and hearts against my will? Grrrr.

Time to finish (read: start) my reading for tomorrow, and then get to bed.

I cleaned a little bit today (I must have been feeling ill). Cleared off my desk, hung some things on the walls, organized my shelves a little better. Came across the area I've set aside for incense and thought to myself, "Mmm, should light some incense, make the apartment smell pretty." I picked up the box that Jamie's mom gave me last Christmas, twelve sticks of rose-scented incense... and discovered it to be empty. Felt sad. Not sure what to do with the box now; it smells so good still, but is too squished and empty and sad to hang on to. I guess I'll throw it out. Seems like I've thrown out so many things since I left Santa Cruz. Moving is weird like that; it forces you to let go of things, whether you're ready to or not. Sometimes I wander the apartment at night looking for something, only to belatedly realize I threw it out during the move seven months ago.

Anyway. Today was a nice, relaxing, lazy day. Shannon and I got together and dyed our hair; she went a shade closer to black, and I renewed my faded purple streaks with a strong dark blue. I'm enjoying having colored hair. It makes me feel more like me, in some weird sort of way. It makes me feel more outgoing, too.

Anyway. AnyWAY. Just wanted to record those couple of thoughts. Back to the tidying now; perhaps I'll tackle my absurd bedroom next, or the box room that's had flattened boxes in it since I moved in. *sigh* Six months in New Haven and I still haven't finished moving in. I don't cook and I don't clean. I'm bad at life. *sigh*