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Man. I need to write more often. I have a thousand things running through my head and no coherent way to tie any of them together. I feel scattered today. Or maybe this week. Maybe it's just that I'm really way more stressed out than I think I am. When I sit down and actually put thought into it, it's pretty obvious that I'm just short of being completely and totally overwhelmed, and I'm not entirely sure how I'm holding it all together (I guess last week's breakdown was evidence of how I'm not really holding it all together). Life is good, yes, but life is also busy and challenging and full of long, dense papers on cell polarity posted less than 24 hours before they're supposed to be discussed.
A giant group of us went to Miya's tonight for sushi. It has been waaaay too long since I've had sushi, and I suffered one of those "eyes bigger than stomach" phenomena. I ate way more than I should have, and loved every bite. Miya's is supposedly the best sushi place in town, and though I have no comparison since it's the only sushi place in town I've been to, I can see how it got that reputation. Everything I had was far and away amazing. I think I may have a new favorite food. The mishima sonata (I think) has to be the best thing I've ever eaten. I normally don't get this excited about food, but man. Man.
I finally got colonies today in lab. It's been five weeks and I've done the same damn transformation seven times and today it finally worked. You'd think I'd be happy about it, but mostly I sort of want to take the plates and throw them across a room. Any room. Why the hell did it take so long? I didn't do anything differently this time. I used fresh NZY broth, but contaminated old broth wouldn't have prevented colonies from growing, it would have just given me contaminated results. So what the hell? Sometimes science really makes me angry. I hate it when stuff doesn't work for NO APPARENT REASON. I hate it when things can only be attributed to black magic or the will of the Transformation Gods. Maybe the PCR didn't work. Maybe I'll just tell myself the PCRs didn't work, and that will explain why it worked this time when we switched to the new machine. At least then logic will be satisfied and my brain can be tricked into thinking it understands what went wrong. $#@&$*ing bacteria.
/rant.
This is gonna sound dumb, but I miss my mom.
I want more out of current life but I haven't quite figured out what the more is that I want.
A giant group of us went to Miya's tonight for sushi. It has been waaaay too long since I've had sushi, and I suffered one of those "eyes bigger than stomach" phenomena. I ate way more than I should have, and loved every bite. Miya's is supposedly the best sushi place in town, and though I have no comparison since it's the only sushi place in town I've been to, I can see how it got that reputation. Everything I had was far and away amazing. I think I may have a new favorite food. The mishima sonata (I think) has to be the best thing I've ever eaten. I normally don't get this excited about food, but man. Man.
I finally got colonies today in lab. It's been five weeks and I've done the same damn transformation seven times and today it finally worked. You'd think I'd be happy about it, but mostly I sort of want to take the plates and throw them across a room. Any room. Why the hell did it take so long? I didn't do anything differently this time. I used fresh NZY broth, but contaminated old broth wouldn't have prevented colonies from growing, it would have just given me contaminated results. So what the hell? Sometimes science really makes me angry. I hate it when stuff doesn't work for NO APPARENT REASON. I hate it when things can only be attributed to black magic or the will of the Transformation Gods. Maybe the PCR didn't work. Maybe I'll just tell myself the PCRs didn't work, and that will explain why it worked this time when we switched to the new machine. At least then logic will be satisfied and my brain can be tricked into thinking it understands what went wrong. $#@&$*ing bacteria.
/rant.
This is gonna sound dumb, but I miss my mom.
I want more out of current life but I haven't quite figured out what the more is that I want.
