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[oceantheorem]

Man, I want to go skydiving again. I think I'm getting addicted to extreme sports. Not that skydiving is a sport. And not that climbing is really that extreme. And I'm not sure sailing is either extreme or a sport. But you get the idea.

I want to go kayaking, kitesurfing, parasailing, hangliding.... I want to go skydiving again! I went climbing this morning, and I want to go again! My hands are getting shredded. I'm in a bouldering phase, so I've been spending a lot of time working on traversing, which uses different muscles and contact points than climbing top ropes, and my hands are just shredded. Other than that, though, I feel great. I gained back those five pounds I lost (%&$#@*!) which makes me angry, but I still feel like I'm in really good shape. I'm telling myself that I lost five pounds of fat and have now gained five pounds of muscle. "Just keep telling yourself that." I did a 5.10b/c today without falling on the second try.

I miss Santa Cruz already. I've been looking at it with different eyes since I realized I was leaving, and suddenly it seems like it's actually my home. I have a place here. And the weather really is great (except for those 47 straight days of rain we had in March and April) most of the time. And I may not have a ton of friends here, but I do have GOOD friends here. So it's going to be hard to leave. I'm also completely terrified of Yale. There's no climbing gym in New Haven. I got denied university housing, so I have to find a place to live from 3000 miles away. And what if I get there and find out that I hate the East Coast? Or what if everyone else finds out I'm not as smart as they are? Or what if it turns out that I hate science? Or what if... what if...

*goes to look up skydiving jump zones in Connecticut*

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[either-or.livejournal.com]

i REALLY want to go parasailing.

i looked into housing in new haven last year - it seems really reasonable. the east coast is diverse enough that you'll surely find *something* to love about it. everybody goes through an "imposter" phase when they start grad school - if it makes you feel any better, i don't think *anybody* in grad school is all that smart (no offense!)...

you don't hate science. science is awesome. i want to do science!

[oceantheorem.livejournal.com]

*takes a deep breath* Thanks. It's just such a big change! And I'm going out there all by myself! It's such a huge thing.

Science is cool!

[oceantheorem.livejournal.com]

I'm hoping that the fact that it's grad school means that the percentage of dumb slacking alcoholics will be lower than it was for undergrad.

I don't have a tape measure... But that's a good idea.

[fieryminge.livejournal.com]

http://newhaven.craigslist.org/
there's a lot of helpful links... housing/apartments/rooms/things for sale/jobs.... all for new haven. and probably some surrounding towns/cities too.

and you're going to love the east coast! true, it's a different place. but there's so much history out there... and the architecture is so amazing. and you're near a lot of really cool places. you'll have a blast out there.

and sweetie... you have nothing to worry about as far as smarts go. you're going to yale! that's pretty darn smart :)

i love you seester!

oh, and i totally need to return and trade your gilmore girls. stupid car. we're supposedly getting it fixed sometime soon. so maybe next weekend-ish? i'll keep you posted!

waffles!

[oceantheorem.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the link! Yale sent me a couple of links, too, so I really just need to sit down and put some effort into the search. It's just hard to rent a place you haven't seen, you know? And I don't know where anything in New Haven is, so I don't know where the good places to live are. I guess I'll just rent something month-to-month and then move once I figure out where I want to be.

Call me about coming down... I've gotta finish my thesis, and I have a research paper due next week, so I may not have time to hang out next weekend. Keep in touch, we'll work something out.

Water machine!