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It is Monday.
Saturday was painful.
I'm trying not to think too much about my performance on that stupid subject test. I know for sure that I got three questions right. Three out of 180 isn't bad, right?
This is all bringing up the "do I want to go to grad school" debate again, and is making me headachy and upset. So maybe I'll just defer to the previous decision on said topic and not do anything. Send in apps and wait for acceptances/rejections, and decide in April. If it turns out I failed the subject GRE, I'll take it again in April. Then I'll either... go be something insane, like a not-grad student, or I'll re-apply. In the meantime... not thinking about it. Thinking instead about pchem. And boys. Pchem and boys.
Enrollment for next quarter starts today. I'll be taking the second quarter of pchem, a 5-credit eukaryotic molecular biology lab, and senior thesis research. Theoretically I'll be spending next quarter writing my thesis and not actually doing the research. I'm supposed to finish that by Christmas.
Oh man. Too many things to think about. I'm going to go buy chocolate.
Saturday was painful.
I'm trying not to think too much about my performance on that stupid subject test. I know for sure that I got three questions right. Three out of 180 isn't bad, right?
This is all bringing up the "do I want to go to grad school" debate again, and is making me headachy and upset. So maybe I'll just defer to the previous decision on said topic and not do anything. Send in apps and wait for acceptances/rejections, and decide in April. If it turns out I failed the subject GRE, I'll take it again in April. Then I'll either... go be something insane, like a not-grad student, or I'll re-apply. In the meantime... not thinking about it. Thinking instead about pchem. And boys. Pchem and boys.
Enrollment for next quarter starts today. I'll be taking the second quarter of pchem, a 5-credit eukaryotic molecular biology lab, and senior thesis research. Theoretically I'll be spending next quarter writing my thesis and not actually doing the research. I'm supposed to finish that by Christmas.
Oh man. Too many things to think about. I'm going to go buy chocolate.
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Date: 2005-11-14 03:05 pm (UTC)From::D
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Date: 2005-11-14 07:34 pm (UTC)From:*HUGS*
Did you get the card I sent?
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Date: 2005-11-14 07:37 pm (UTC)From:you are such a wonderful person! i am lucky to know you...
and yes.. it came today! thank you. galen said (while pointing at it): "doo?" and i said "yes, galen. that's a birthday card"
it was cute!
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Date: 2005-11-14 07:42 pm (UTC)From:Aww... you're making me all mushy. I'M lucky to know YOU! I love you to pieces!
Call me sometime... we should catch up... and set a time to hang out over Thanksgiving. You can show off Galen and I'll show off Jamie. :-D
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Date: 2005-11-14 03:12 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2005-11-14 07:40 pm (UTC)From:-Waitress
-Teach (high school biology? ick. maybe not)
-Work in biotech industry (Genentech, Dupont, etc.)
-Apply for a job with the CIA
-Marry someone rich and be barefoot and pregnant for a few years
-Work as a science writer, for Science or Nature or some such
-Become a book editor (although, a degree in biochem probly won't secure me a great non-entry-level job in book editing)
But going to grad school yields mostly the same results for that list. It would be better to have a Ph.D. for teaching, for the biotech industry, for the CIA, for science writing... and I can always be barefoot and pregnant later. Or during graduate work. Lots of graduate students start families. I mean, maybe I'd have to wear shoes. But I could be pregnant. Anyway. The whole point of the post is that I don't really know what I want to do right now, and I'm weighing my options. I'm holding off on deciding at the moment. I am 20 and have the whole world ahead of me; I shall not close doors until I have determined I don't want to go through them.
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Date: 2005-11-14 08:23 pm (UTC)From:A few notes:
In order to teach HS, you would need accredation, which would either require going back to school for a teaching degree or getting an MEd (so, in other words, more school). Even subbing (in Washoe County, at least) would require a few courses of school you probably don't have.
Even with a double-major in English and History, I doubt my ability to land a job I'd like in editing unless I manage to somehow become editor of The Leading Edge one of these years (and therefore have both an English degree and experience as managing editor). This is why Editing as a career option is becoming less and less appealing to me. In your case, I think you'd be lucky to land an entry-level position with any publisher (except perhaps places like the phone book people, who probably have very high turnover).
I hope you find a job that appeals to you, though. I'm sure the CIA would be interesting—I know they like linguists, and I've thought about that, but it doesn't really appeal to me, ultimately.
So, whatever happened to going off into the middle of the ocean and being a scientist?
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Date: 2005-11-14 11:19 pm (UTC)From:I do like science. I just don't know how much, or what I want to do with it. I love learning about it. I don't know how I feel about laboratory research yet; I hate my thesis but I think that's because of the topic, and not the actual process of doing research. In other words, I think I would renew my love of science and of lab research if I got into a project I enjoyed and/or was actually interested in.
While the ocean is cool, I decided that ecology is too boring for me, and I don't think that being a marine biologist would be fulfilling. I also don't think I would enjoy it as much as I used to think I would. Watching Ann go through the motions has convinced me that Marine Biology is NOT the field for me.
Yeah, if I apply to the CIA I'll need to get back into French. I'd also like to pick up Latin again, and maybe start taking Italian. I've always been a little daunted by non-Romance languages, but it might be fun to pick up one or two of those as well. Hebrew, maybe. Or something else equally useless. Ooh! Sanskrit! Mmm.... But my main work with the CIA would probably be more related to biotechnology, and not something that required me to know other languages.
Yeah, editing would be cool, but I don't really see that as a viable Life Option. I just don't think I've got the right setup to go into that, although if I decide it's the only thing in the world that will make me happy, I'm sure I could weasel my way into something. Or at least move up pretty quickly from an entry-level job. If I could get one.
I'd also really like to learn to play an instrument. Specifically the violin. I still don't know if I can fit that into the Life Plan, but I'd like to.
And now I'm thinking about writing a novel, too. *sigh* So much world, so little Kara.
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Date: 2005-11-14 11:21 pm (UTC)From: