Yes!

[oceantheorem]

I think I just had one of those moments. The life-shaping ones, you know. Sometimes you can tell that you've had them and sometimes you can't. I had one of them the summer before ninth grade, at that all-girls camp in Minnesota, when they told me I could dance just because I wanted to. That was one of those moments--I realized then that I had power inside of me and I could be whatever I wanted, I just had to take the leap. How I got that out of being pushed onto the dance floor I'm not sure, but I remember feeling the click, the change in the way my mind was wired.

And tonight, I was talking to my housemate's boyfriend, having a great conversation, and he said, "Just stop being afraid of yourself." I don't know how he saw that, but when he said it my mind clicked again, in that same way it did at Camp Birchwood. "Oh," I said. It was one of those things I never would have noticed about myself, but it makes perfect sense now that it's been pointed out, and now I can use that knowledge. And this is one of those summers when I need all the knowledge about myself I can get.

Amazing feeling. Lots to do... but it's exciting to have this new thing to think about. "Just stop being afraid of yourself." Yeah.

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[oceantheorem.livejournal.com]

Oh yes, the seven legs thing. Forgot about that.

And I can't tell you how many times I've been wandering the streets of Cairo when some techno started up and I didn't have any balls with me, and had nothing to juggle. So, man, I hear you about taking them with you.

You just keep a healthy dose of insanity in your pockets and the world will still be a good place.

Run for the hills!

[bananasofdeath.livejournal.com]

You know you've been best friends a while when you forget about each other's conspicuous extra appendages.

I really want to walk around on my hands. I don't know if I can. This will be interesting...