I want a do-over.

[oceantheorem]

Today sucks.

I feel like a terrible person all around.

This morning in lab, I had to ask my postdoc what I was supposed to be doing. "What are you doing?" she asked. "Um... nothing. That's why I'm asking you what I'm supposed to be doing." She gave me a funny look and then had me streak out some cultures. I felt like... like... a college freshman. Bleargh. I should know by now how to proceed with my own stupid rotation project....

I had two discussion sections today, and read both papers right before their respective sections. For once, I felt like I actually had a handle on what was going on, so I piped up in class in the second one when the PI asked a question. He looked at me funny and then said, "No, the blah blah blah is like blah blah blah," and I said, "Yes, and that's because of blah blah blah," knowing full well that I was completely correct. He gave me another funny look, said something contradictory to what he'd JUST SAID, then explained what I'd said in almost exactly the same words. I wanted to throw a brick at his head.

I have a midterm Thursday and was expecting it to be a grad-level test. You know, they give us some data and we interpret it, or they give us a problem and we solve it, or something that tests intelligence. But no. I saw the practice test today and it's straight memorization. Just memorize everything we've talked about for the last two months and you'll be fine.
I'm screwed.

And I made a comment on someone's lj that I thought would be helpful advice, and it turned out to be deeply offensive.
I feel like a complete jackass.

I'm gonna go bang my head against a wall now.

Comments

[crazypumpkin.livejournal.com]

Not that I actually know you in person, or how you actually do in lab, but you sound a whole hell of a lot smarter and more useful than our rotation student.

[oceantheorem.livejournal.com]

*sigh* Thanks. But I bet I'm just as useless and idiotic. I feel stupid EVERY DAY in that lab. Gaaaahhhh......