You know what?

You know what? I'm really sick of depression. Not just for me. I mean, since I posted that list I haven't been depressed at all. But I'm sick of everyone else being depressed. I want the world to lighten up. If you want something, reach for it. Love deeply. Laugh. Enjoy every moment you can. I'm so tired of people bemoaning what they did or didn't do in the past. You know what? This is who you are, this is where you are now. If you don't want to be here, move. If you don't like who you are now, change. I'm so sick of listening to people complain, and listening to people berate themselves. If you hate yourself so much, do something about it. Life is beautiful and life is meant to be lived and enjoyed. Sure, you can make yourself a better person. But I don't think life is even about that. I think you're just supposed to be happy, and enjoy life, and do what makes you happy. As long as that doesn't hurt anyone else. I mean, if you want to drop out of college and be an artist, fine, go do it. But don't sit around and bemoan the fact that you can't do college, or that you wasted time in college. If you want to be able to afford a nice house and kids and have a great job, then get a degree and work towards that. Being happy takes some effort. You have to make your own way in the world. No one is going to hand it to you. I'm so sick of listnening to people complain about how life is so hard. They're not trying. Do what you have to to get out of life what you want. I'm in California because this is my dream. I'm in school because I love school and because I want a degree so I can afford to buy pretty clothes and nice things for the kids I'm going to have one day. I'm happy. I have a dream, a goal, and I'm living it, and this is my life and I don't regret anything. Get over the past and worry about the present and the future. And stop complaing about what you did or didn't do. I'm sick of hearing about it. I'm sick of cheering people up.

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But of course I'll still do it. I mean, cheering people up. I'm pretty good at it. And I guess I don't mind it that much. I like cheering people up, and giving good advice. I guess I'm just sick of giving the same advice over and over and over to the same people, and then having them bemoan the fact that they never listen to me. Or that they know what they should do but they're too lazy to do it.

Anyway. Yeah, I'm annoyed. But I'll still be here if anyone needs me, for any reason, and in your hour of need I won't yell at you or be annoyed with you or criticize you, because that's the type of person I am and if you're close enough to me to be reading this journal, then you're close enough to deserve me being nice to you.