It's definitely true that if I went back to California, it wouldn't be the same. Everyone is gone. And I would go to UCSF, not to UCSC, so I wouldn't even be in the same town to be there for the things I keep saying I miss--certain beaches, restaurants, trees. Everything would be different. So who's to say whether or not I'd even be happier if I went back? Who's to say I wouldn't just be miserable over leaving Yale? And who's to say I wouldn't be fantastically World Series happy all the time? *sigh*
I do think that a sense of control, and a realization that we have options, makes not changing anything easier. Just to know that you can is a big comfort. Your new dissertation topic sounds neat, by the way. I'm glad you met the Jesus lady. :-)
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Date: 2007-04-29 05:19 am (UTC)From:It's definitely true that if I went back to California, it wouldn't be the same. Everyone is gone. And I would go to UCSF, not to UCSC, so I wouldn't even be in the same town to be there for the things I keep saying I miss--certain beaches, restaurants, trees. Everything would be different. So who's to say whether or not I'd even be happier if I went back? Who's to say I wouldn't just be miserable over leaving Yale?
And who's to say I wouldn't be fantastically World Series happy all the time?
*sigh*
I do think that a sense of control, and a realization that we have options, makes not changing anything easier. Just to know that you can is a big comfort.
Your new dissertation topic sounds neat, by the way. I'm glad you met the Jesus lady. :-)