Could someone send me a GMail invite, please?

[oceantheorem]

AHHHH!!! I'm updating for the second time in a single evening!! Something's wrong with my brain!!

For some strange reason, I have LOTS of bruises on my legs. From pelvic bone to mid-thigh I am one big bruise. What did I do to myself? Was I abducted by aliens who handled me too strongly? A lot of the bruises look like fingerprints... but nobody's been grabbing my legs recently. At least not that I remember. Strange mystery....

Also, I am one big endometriotic sack of panic. There's no way I can see Dr. Muir, so I'm seeing Dr. Doherty instead. And it makes me wonder: I had to wait five weeks to see Dr. Muir but only two to see Dr. Doherty--what's wrong with Doherty? I'm STILL pissed that I can't see Dr. Muir. So fucking pissed.
I called them today to confirm the appointment with Doherty, since there was a big to-do yesterday with trying to see Dr. Muir or maybe seeing Doherty this week instead of next. And I was informed that the appointment I have to see Doherty is an ultrasound. You know, it's a good thing that I was told that on confirmation instead of when I fucking showed up for the appointment. Shouldn't that have been made clear when I made the appointment?

I'm rapidly becoming disenchanted with this association, and I don't know how thrilled I am about letting these people poke around with my uterus. Their office can't handle scheduling appointments; what makes me think they would be good doctors?

(And really, I'm just horribly, deeply freaked out and scared. They're going to do an ultrasound. Suddenly the reality of surgery is hitting home, and the severity of my condition is beginning to set in. And I'm really fucking scared.)

Comments

[fieryminge.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*

everything will be okay seester! do you know yet when your surgery is? and don't worry sweetie... scheduling errors are because of the stupid receptionists not doing their jobs properly. the doctors have really no say (unless they specifically request you back on a certain day) when your appointments are scheduled. i'm sure the doctor you're seeing is a very very good doctor. and ultrasounds... they sound scary but they're really not. there're two kinds though... external and internal. they do ones internally with a really, really phallic looking probe to get a closer look at your uterus. no one had told me that and when i went in to the doctor's office to have my first ultrasound of galen done, i sat there wondering why in the world there was a container of condoms next to the equipment, lol. and they use lots and lots of lube, no matter which kind of ultrasound they do. and even though they try to warm it up, it's still cold. anyway. if you need me, call me. i go to work at 130 today, but i'll still answer your call.

i love you seester! *hugs* oh, and i have a gmail invite if you want it :)

[oceantheorem.livejournal.com]

No, I don't know yet when the surgery is, and I don't know which type of ultrasound it is, but I did know there were two kinds....

Thanks for the comfort. I think I'll be okay, I'm just nervous....

Thank for the gmail invite! I'm dnatheory@gmail now. :-D

ultrasound

[owlishness.livejournal.com]

Why would the idea of the ultrasound freak you out more than the idea of surgery? I'm confused.

Also, I've update Snoog, just so ya know. And I LOVE your picture. What is that frightened Loch Nessie looking thing? You'll have to point me to the jpg.

Re: ultrasound

[oceantheorem.livejournal.com]

Oh, it's not that the ultrasound scares me more than the surgery. It's just that the idea of the ultrasound suddenly makes it all real. So because of the ultrasound I'm now afraid of the surgery.

I know, I know, convoluted. But in my weird twisted brain it does make sense.

Yay! Snoog!

The awesome Loch Nessie thing is from this amazing artist, Ursula Vernon, I discovered the other day. Go to www.metalandmagic.com and look around at her artwork. She's freaking amazing. Her art is all fun and spunky, and if you go to the galleries you can see a description (and explanation) for each piece. And I swear I've never laughed so hard in my whole life. Her descriptions are funnier than the Sunday comics. (And if you look in my userpics you'll find two more icons by her. This is one of them. *points up*)

metal and magic

[owlishness.livejournal.com]

OMG she's so awesome I love you Kara. Wheeeeee! Ai, senor, the banditos have raided our veeellage! (http://www.metalandmagic.com/modules.php?set_albumName=anthromorphic&id=battlehamsters&op=modload&name=gallery&file=index&include=view_photo.php) I think I have to email that one to Hermann.

Re: metal and magic

[oceantheorem.livejournal.com]

*laugh* Told you she was great! I spent most of Wednesday evening and most of yesterday afternoon reading through her galleries. I love her work, and her sense of humor is right up my alley... Ah... Someday, when I have zounds of money, I'm going to buy lots of prints from her.

[fieryminge.livejournal.com]

:)

i can totally understand about being nervous. i wish i could come be there for you... you definitely let me know about the surgery and i'll do the best i can to help you out with whatever you need.

*hugs*