oceantheorem | (no subject)

I really miss my mom. I think it's a good thing I'm going to see family in a week. I feel like I'm falling apart. All these independent decisions (not independent from each other, independent as in made by me, an independent person) I've made--I think they're starting to make me hard and unfeeling. I've always been a feeler. I've always had so much love to give. And suddenly I don't have any to give. I'm quiet when other people are hurting. I no longer have any good advice to give, and when I do, it's weak, and I don't give it as well as I could. I feel like I'm becoming a shadow of myself, and I think it's because of the way I rebuilt myself after Jamie. I rebuilt myself to not get hurt again. You can't get hurt if you don't love. But I think that statement is wrong. You can get hurt if you don't love. Not loving IS hurting.

I need my family! I need to BE loved! I need to be allowed to love! Help!

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Kara! What the heck do you mean you don't have good advice and are unfeeling?? Yeesh, gal, you're one of the nicest people I know. By the way, I went to that bubble wrap link. That is awesome! LOL Hey, you'll have to tell me when you're coming through Reno so I can say hi! :)

i love you, seester!!

and you're right... you will get hurt by not loving. so you should work on being the same happy, loving kara that we all know and love (not that you've changed that much anyway) and you'll get better. in the meantime, i'm in the process of writing you a letter and trying to find stuff for a bracelet. and thanks for the bookmark. i love it!

big hugs from reno...