Filler people IS a lousy way to view yourself. Which is why it's such a depressing thought. It doesn't have anything to do with sex, though. It's not like I feel like I'm filler people because I don't have a boyfriend. I feel like I'm filler people because there's nothing unique or amazing about me; I am not going to save the world and I am not one of the few important people who would be missed by humanity if I were killed by a freak bus accident. I am just a person, and I'm only important to people whose lives I'm directly a part of. Perhaps it's extremely arrogant of me to want more than this, and maybe it's a little elitist to say that maybe I could be more than this. Anyway. I just lost my train of thought.