Thanks for this. You're right, said person does seem to have some sort of weird power that distorts reality when I think about him. I'm much better about it than I have been, and I think I'm doing pretty well at not letting it take over my life, but I'm carrying so much regret around these days.... I dunno. I know we've talked about this before, but I'll say it again--in some ways I'm jealous that you at least get to be angry at 'Celis, because the only person I'm allowed to be angry at is myself, and that really doesn't help matters.
Venting helped a little bit; mostly I just wrote until I couldn't stay awake any longer, and then fell into a blessedly dreamless sleep. I feel a little better this morning.
Thanks again for the perspective. It's good for me to be told to step away from the situation and leave it alone.
Qualifying is a process every graduate student goes through. It's generally at the end of the second year, and it involves a lot of heavy, intensive reading in whatever subject you're in. I'm not sure exactly what the Genetics department requires, but I think I pick three faculty members to be on my qualifying committee, and they help me pick and read pertinent papers for about two months, and then eventually there will be a big oral examination wherein those three faculty members will quiz me on all aspects of genetics and of my proposed thesis project. If I appear to have a sufficient grasp on the field and am an expert in whatever my thesis is going to be on, they'll "pass" me, which will officially advance me to Ph.D. candidacy (I'm not actually a Ph.D. student yet, according to the university, but I think all Ph.D. programs make that distinction). Anyway, it's this big deal and it's super frightening, but people keep telling me I'll be fine, so I'm trying to breathe.
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Venting helped a little bit; mostly I just wrote until I couldn't stay awake any longer, and then fell into a blessedly dreamless sleep. I feel a little better this morning.
Thanks again for the perspective. It's good for me to be told to step away from the situation and leave it alone.
Qualifying is a process every graduate student goes through. It's generally at the end of the second year, and it involves a lot of heavy, intensive reading in whatever subject you're in. I'm not sure exactly what the Genetics department requires, but I think I pick three faculty members to be on my qualifying committee, and they help me pick and read pertinent papers for about two months, and then eventually there will be a big oral examination wherein those three faculty members will quiz me on all aspects of genetics and of my proposed thesis project. If I appear to have a sufficient grasp on the field and am an expert in whatever my thesis is going to be on, they'll "pass" me, which will officially advance me to Ph.D. candidacy (I'm not actually a Ph.D. student yet, according to the university, but I think all Ph.D. programs make that distinction). Anyway, it's this big deal and it's super frightening, but people keep telling me I'll be fine, so I'm trying to breathe.