That makes more sense, and after reading that, I remember that is what you said. It sort of amounts to the same thing, though--in the end it seems to have given me the energy to get through grad school. I definitely feel like I don't relax well, which happens to be a really good trait for a graduate student.

And on the second point... *sigh* Why can't we just learn from other peoples' mistakes? Why do I have to mess everything up twice before I learn to do it correctly? Grrrrr.