What if all the reasons I made up to support not going to UCSF turn out to be true? What if all the students are completely absorbed in their research and never do anything outside lab? What if Yale really is freakin awesome, and... and... *panics*
Aaaaah, I totally identify with this given that I barely even considered Stanford as an incoming freshman. Of course, my situation is different in the sense that if I had actually gone to Stanford in the first place, I probably wouldn't have the reasons I have now for wanting to go there, because I would have met Venkat during the school year and we probably wouldn't have hooked up (although, who knows) and basically life would be really different now etc. etc.
But now it's weird that at the time I was like "NO, Stanford, ew, it's too close to home and besides the kids there are STOOPID and half of them went to my high school and I didn't even like them," and now in theory I have no reason to believe that those two things aren't still exactly the same.
The thing is, though...well there are two things. First of all, I think we're all better at dealing with things in the moment than we give ourselves credit for. If you go to UCSF, eventually the comparison with Yale will fade and you'll do what you can with what you have.
Second of all, even if everything you originally made up about UCSF turns out to be true, you have some legit extra information now about what Yale is like. You were here, and you didn't like it. Maybe once you leave, you won't remember why exactly you didn't like it, but basically, whatever is true of UCSF, you know Yale isn't doing it for you. Which you didn't know when you made the original decision. But now you know. And if it turns out that what bothers you about Yale is something that will bother you at UCSF also, then you'll be in a better position to realize how best to deal with it.
Sorry to write you a novel, but I have a lot of thoughts about this particular decision at this particular point in time!
What's PCR? I'm young and stupid.
Why'd you graduate early?
A week and a half...good timing, especially on semesters! (:
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Aaaaah, I totally identify with this given that I barely even considered Stanford as an incoming freshman. Of course, my situation is different in the sense that if I had actually gone to Stanford in the first place, I probably wouldn't have the reasons I have now for wanting to go there, because I would have met Venkat during the school year and we probably wouldn't have hooked up (although, who knows) and basically life would be really different now etc. etc.
But now it's weird that at the time I was like "NO, Stanford, ew, it's too close to home and besides the kids there are STOOPID and half of them went to my high school and I didn't even like them," and now in theory I have no reason to believe that those two things aren't still exactly the same.
The thing is, though...well there are two things. First of all, I think we're all better at dealing with things in the moment than we give ourselves credit for. If you go to UCSF, eventually the comparison with Yale will fade and you'll do what you can with what you have.
Second of all, even if everything you originally made up about UCSF turns out to be true, you have some legit extra information now about what Yale is like. You were here, and you didn't like it. Maybe once you leave, you won't remember why exactly you didn't like it, but basically, whatever is true of UCSF, you know Yale isn't doing it for you. Which you didn't know when you made the original decision. But now you know. And if it turns out that what bothers you about Yale is something that will bother you at UCSF also, then you'll be in a better position to realize how best to deal with it.
Sorry to write you a novel, but I have a lot of thoughts about this particular decision at this particular point in time!
What's PCR? I'm young and stupid.
Why'd you graduate early?
A week and a half...good timing, especially on semesters! (: